Grief Lessons from the Wal-Mart Truck

I have used many analogies and metaphors to describe my grief journey in the seven years since my daughter Jeannine died.  During my early grief, I frequently described feeling, on a good day, like I had been consistently pummeled with a baseball bat. On an excruciating day, it felt like two baseball bats were simultaneously pummeling me.  As my journey has progressed, my analogies are not so much related to the pain of Jeannine’s death, but rather on what her death has taught me.

Late last week, I was driving to a baseball game. As soon as I pulled onto the highway, I found myself behind a very slow moving Wal-Mart truck.  I have never been a patient driver, and most of the time experience extreme frustration when I am behind a slow moving vehicle.  There were also two other cars in front of me.

None of us could pass the truck because a solid yellow line divided, for the most part, the two-lane highway.  Since it appeared that I was not going to be able to pass, I decided to just settle back and enjoy the scenery, enjoy the present moment.

During the next three to four miles of my ride, here is what transpired and how I feel it relates to our grief journeys:

* The car directly in front of me attempted to pass the Wal-Mart truck, realized that he couldn’t and got back behind it.  During my early grief, there were days that I wanted to get around my pain or just simply avoid it. When I attempted to do that, it just made my emotional pain worse. I learned that the only way to deal with my pain was to ride it out, until it became tolerable. Also, the driver recognized his limitations in that situation. At any time during our grief journeys, we need to recognize that there are certain situations that we may not be able to handle. Recognizing our limitations is a key ingredient in learning to take care of ourselves during our lifelong journeys.

* As I continued to enjoy the scenery around me and the present moment, the truck suddenly pulled onto the shoulder of the road and let us all pass.  I appreciated his thoughtfulness, particularly in this day and age where chivalry is sometimes an afterthought.  His action reminded me of two very important lessons that I have learned since Jeannine’s death. The first relates to the importance of dealing with our own pain by doing something nice for others.  Using our pain to help others is a key component of service work.  The second lesson relates to the importance of taking care of the present and letting the universe take care of the rest.  When I have been able to accomplish this, I have been able to find joy, meaning and develop a greater appreciation for those around me.  Being present-minded has also allowed me to appreciate the connectedness that I still have with Jeannine and her continuing influence in redefining who I am.

David Roberts

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David J. Roberts, LMSW ,became a parent who experienced the death of a child, after his daughter Jeannine died of cancer on 3/1/03 at the age of 18. He is a retired addiction professional and is also an adjunct professor in the psychology department at Utica College, Utica, New York. Dave has presented workshops at national conferences of The Compassionate Friends and Bereaved Parents ,as well as local and regional venues. Dave was also the keynote speaker at both the 2011 and 2015 national gatherings of the Bereaved Parents of the USA. He is also a featured speaker,workshop presenter and coach for Aspire Place(www.aspireplace.com) Dave is a HuffPost contributor and has also written articles for several other grief and self-improvement publications. He has co-authored two books with Linda Findlay of Mourning Discoveries. One is on navigating grief during the holidays and the other is on pet loss. One of Dave's articles” My Daughter is Never Far Away" can also be found in Open to Hope: Inspirational Stories of Healing and Loss. Excerpts from Dave's article for The Open to Hope Foundation, called The Broken Places, were featured in the 2012 Paraclete Press DVD video, Grieving the Sudden Death of a Loved One. Dave has also appeared on Healing the Grieving Heart and the Advocacy Heals U radio shows , and the Open to Hope television show . Dave’s website: www.bootsyandangel.com is devoted to providing support and resources for individuals experiencing loss.

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  • Ruth says:

    all articles are a help to me now. my son passed Monday. it is fresh, it is raw i am reaching out whereever i can. i do not know what to do. your article is good. maybe it will help at some point. can you list resources you used to help cope

    • Dear Ruth,

      I am so sorry for the loss of your child. Go to Compassionate Friends. They are everywhere. Also, seek out a community with a spiritual center. Stay in nature. Take yourself to the sea and read every resource available. Talk to us here at Open to Hope.

      It’s a terrible place that you are in right now, so painful, crippling; and I remember it well.

      Kind regards to you,
      MJ

      • Dave Roberts says:

        Hi Ruth:
        I also want to express my condolences to you for the death of your son. I know that I gave you my thoughts in an e-mail to you, but would also echo what MJ said to you as well. Any resources that you can reach out for will help you adjust to a new reality and find joy and meaning again.

  • Hi Dave,

    Yes, surrendering to the present moment. It’s a challenge some days to let it all be and I think more for those of us who have lost a child for we see the futility of trying to control things that we simply could not with our own child’s death. It’s a primary reason I’ve been doing yoga for the past year.

    Thanks for helping us to remember to pause, breathe and trust a little more each day and to reach out to others. You do that so well, Dave.

    Here’s my little story on “Summer Love” with some suggestions of how to help others at the tale’s end http://www.wheneverydaymatters.com/?p=92

    Warm regards,
    MJ

    • Dave Roberts says:

      Hi MJ:
      Thank you for your kind words on my article and for your validation in general. You do a great job reminding us of the importance of mindfulness in helping us navigating through grief and reaching out to others as well. You are right about the challenges of staying in the present moment. I have found massage therapy and acupuncture to be helpful in facilitating mindfulness for me.

      Thanks for all that you do to provide hope and support for the bereaved.

      P.S. I loved your Summer Love article
      Take care

      Dave