Why did you come two thousand and eight?
And why is everyone happy and feeling so great?
If your intention is to bring me joy, then it is too late
Since you have already determined my fate
I cannot welcome another new year
Without having my beloved daughter near
It is amazing how everyone else is joyful and wants to cheer
I guess many among them have not yet lost someone so dear!
“Why are you so sad on this day?” I am asked
“Does it coincide with the day your daughter passed?”
Gone should be the days that you mourned her and cried
It is over a year since your beloved daughter died!”
Is there anyone who understands why I still cry?
And why I do not wish another day to come and fly?
And why I want to go back to when my hopes were high
Two new years ago, when I did not know what it is like to sigh
Although my daughter is always in my heart alive
I want her next to me, when I eat, wake up, sleep and drive
Oh two thousand and eight, I wish you did not arrive
I wish you go two new years back and my past revive.
Randah R. Hamadeh, 2008, Copyright
Written in loving memory of my daughter
Samar Ahmed Al Ansari (4/4/1988-4/9/2006)
(www.samaralansari.com)
How beautiful. I lost my daughter last year to MPNST sarcoma. It was a long two year battle. She showed such strength through it all. Then the final blow came in December as I held my mom as she left us. Mom just gave up hope to live when my daughter got cancer. She said she would never bury a child/grandchild. I feel as if my world has crashed down around me. I know your loss and I know your pain.
Barb
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my daughter after a two year battle with MPNST sarcoma. She showed such strength through it all. Then the final blow came as I held my mom as she let us. Mom just gave up hope to live. She said she would never bury a child/grandchild. I feel as my world has crashed down around me. I know your loss and I know your pain
Barb
Dear Barb,
Thank you for appreciating my poem.I am very sorry that you lost both your daughter and mother.Burying a child is the worst thing that can happen to a parent.Our children are supposed to bury us and not the other way round! May God give you comfort and strength to endure your loss of the two significant women in your life.
Randah Hamadeh
Dear Randah,
I’m sorry for you loss. I lost my 21 year old son 7-months ago in a car accident. He died 1 block away from home.I was drawn to your poem as this is exactly the way I felt about coming into the New Year. New Years Eve, I laid in my bed sobbing-not knowing how to accept a “new year” without my son. A new year that brings new hopes & dreams for so many. Me, all I wanted was for God to restore my world to the day that my son was still in it. Refusing to leave my son behind, he is forever in my heart and together we walked over the threashold of 2008. I still cry and always will. I know why you still cry also. Thank you Rahdah for your poem. It really touched me.
I just wanted you to know that your poem really spoke to me and touched my heart. I lost my 12 day old baby girl to NEC on New Years Eve 2006. New Years and the holiday season will never be the same. I do understand why you still cry. I still cry often.
Dear Katherine,
Sorry for your loss. May God give you patience to go through the days and let you find some comfort in the beautiful memories you shared together. Although your son is physically gone,he will always be in your heart and in every step you take.
I am comforted to know that my poem not only spoke of my feelings but of yours at the start of a New Year.
Randah Hamadeh
Dear Kindra,
I am sorry for your loss. I am glad to know that my poem was well received by you and touched your heart.New Year’s Eve must be particularly painful for you…May God give you strength and comfort.
Randah Hamadeh
This poem is wonderful! My 10 year old sister passed away 1-9-08 and this is very much how we feel about 2008. The world was bright and wonderful until this new year fell upon us. Now there are not words to express our feelings and the need to go back to a time when everything was alright.