John French

My name is John French. I was born in January of 1968. I own and operate a small remodeling company in Highland, MI. My wife Michelle and I married very young and we celebrated our 20th anniversary in May of 2009. We had two amazing children: Veronica, who is 20, and Brandon, who was 17. We worked very hard to build a life that would afford us the luxury of giving them all the things we never had, including a stable home, committed loving parents and every material thing imaginable (within the means of a middle class family, I should add). Over the last few years, it seemed we had finally arrived, and living was easy. Then Brandon passed away in August of 2009 from an undiagnosed heart condition. The devastation of that one single moment has crushed our view of reality and cast us down into a state of perpetual winter. I’ve been writing all my life, though not publically. Brandon’s death has so overwhelmed me that I can no longer contain my thoughts. Although my stance is undermined by despair, and frosted by the bitterness that follows the loss of my son, I will labor to plant some seeds of promise in the barren future that I'm so unexpectedly tilling. Perhaps something beneficial will stem from my mourning. If you can gather even a grain of hope from my reaping, it may help to sustain you through your own emotional storm. Reach John at [email protected] or through his website


Winter Without Son is Lusterless, 26 Dec 2014

Five Years After Son’s Death, Dad Wonders if ‘the Blue Skies are Coming’, 02 Jul 2014

‘Splendor to Offset the Gloom’ – Even After Childloss, 08 Aug 2011

In Barrens of Grief, Hope Still Blooms, 19 Mar 2011

Poem: Music In Mourning, 18 Jan 2011

Taking the Plunge to Honor Son, 22 Nov 2010

Despite Pain of Child-Loss, ‘Surrender is Beneath Me’, 09 Jun 2010

Despite Spring Thaw, Bereaved Dad Feels the Cold, 27 Apr 2010

Child-Loss: When the Heavens Go Dark, 18 Feb 2010

Taking a Rest on the Journey through Grief, 10 Jan 2010

Facing the Early Days of Grief, 09 Oct 2009