How come when tragedy strikes, we hear the words, “Time heals”? After suffering and recovering from much hardship, time has been both an ally and enemy. It slowed enough so I could be with my father when he took his last breath, and for this I’m grateful. But four years after his death, the void in my heart hasn’t healed; it’s still as big as the day he died.
Each day is another day without him physically. And, time, reflective of each passing calendar day, continuously reminds me of this.
Yes, I’ve been comforted with the belief that when he died, his pain ended. The conviction that we’re spiritual beings living a physical existence with a knowing the soul continues without the body has soothed me. My intuition enables me to feel his presence through nature (breezes, butterflies, sunsets and so on). I’ve developed rituals honoring his name through volunteer work, creativity and with increased compassion for others suffering, this warms my heart.
Time doesn’t heal; it gifts the opportunity to be in the present moment. This, after loss, is the last place anyone wants to be. The reality of knowing my loved one is no longer physically with me and, will never be, is hard to swallow. But, once this realization is fully processed with mind, body and spirit ,and I’ve accepted the world without him physically with a choice that I didn’t die therefore my life must go on, healing begins.
I’ve surrendered my life to this realization. Time offers this bridge and once crossed, it is reflective of a choice to live healthy, to feel joy again.
Love heals. I know my dad would want me to live with joy instead of sorrow. I’m sure your loved one would want the same.
If you’re suffering loss, utilize time as the bridge to cross when you’re ready to stop holding your breath. Choose to breathe again; take deep healthy breaths because you want to feel alive. With each breath, you’ll choose life and this will help release and honor the past by living your healthiest life. This is the best way to honor your loved one.
Kathy Williams 2012