I lost my 42 year old son to lung cancer in 2007, my mother 6 months later. My husband who had alzheimer passed away October 16, this year. I thought after so many months of taking care of him and watching him diminish I would be ready. The last day of his life we spent the day holding hands shopping, talking and enjoy evening of our usual ice cream when suddenly went into cardiac arrest. I am having a hard time coping and somedays I feel he is still with me and suddenly over come with grief. My friend and love of 54 years is suddenly gone. I am having a rough time coping.