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After Loss of a child

We know the pain can be unbearable. Read stories and find community. You need not be alone in your journey.

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  • Adrift in A Sea of Grief

    November 5, 2018

    I am adrift in an endless sea of grief. As I float along, the world continues to go on around me as if I am walking among the bustling crowds—but my feet haven’t touched dry land since September 30, 2009. It was on that day—the day my 4-year-old daughter drowned—I was unwillingly thrust into this […]

  • A Christmas Encounter

    November 1, 2018

    In late summer, with a record heat index, I went to the store to do some shopping. As I pushed my cart, I came upon aisles of Christmas decorations already displayed even before the pumpkins had arrived. I looked away. I had for these past years purposed to live in the moment, savor each day, […]

  • Steve Roberts: Finding Forgiveness and Community After the Death of a Child

    September 23, 2018

      Steve Roberts and Open to Hope’s Executive Director, Dr. Heidi Horsley, became friend in 2006 when they met at The Compassionate Friends. Professionally, Roberts is a bank consultant, but his experience with grief dates back to 2005 when he lost his daughter. “Kelsey was 11 years old, she was killed at her home by […]

  • Why Do Therapists Warn the Bereaved that they Will Divorce?

    September 22, 2018

    Dr. Gloria Horsley responds: You got me. I have been a therapist for many years and have repeatedly been told that, parents who lose children divorce. Let’s see, Phil and I have been married for over forty years and it has been over twenty since our son was killed. Memories of our dear Scott seem […]

  • Last Words With

    September 16, 2018

    Coming home was a tough time of day. It signaled the end of the occupational work day, and the beginning of the personal work evening…preparing dinner, doing laundry, taxiing kids, whatever else kept me going until 11 p.m. My 5 p.m. homecoming blues had often been softened by seeing my oldest son Brian’s familiar dark blue […]

  • Art of Grieving, After Loss of Child: Interview With Dr. Delores Gulledge

    September 7, 2018

    At the annual ADEC (Association of Death Education and Counseling), I spoke with Dr. Delores Gulledge about life after the death of her 17 year old daughter Melanie. She shares how she went forward with her life and found a way to help others. Delores is also the author of a book called “A Mourning […]

  • How I Transformed Grief into Growth

    July 17, 2018

    On a balmy summer evening in 2011, my beloved 26-year-old son David was killed instantly in a motorcycle accident and my life was forever changed. Suddenly plunged into a crazy altered reality, I wandered helplessly through disbelief, confusion, anguish, and searing pain. For a long time I felt stuck in my misery, since death is […]

  • When Others Want to Know Why You Aren’t ‘Over’ the Death of Your Child

    July 17, 2018

    Lately, the question I have been getting the most is, “How do I get the people around me to understand why I am still grieving the death of my child so deeply?” We already feel like we are going crazy, and having family and friends tell us we “should be past this by now” may […]

  • For Grieving Moms: When Others Respond in Hurtful Ways

    May 16, 2018

      Fix-It Friends People feel helpless in the face of your loss of a child. They have an intense need to say something to lessen your pain.   They cannot understand that this pain refuses any comfort and must be processed over time to ease. They try to help by saying things that negate your pain, […]

  • How to Release Guilt After Loss of a Child

    May 10, 2018

    After the loss of a child, a mother’s guilt is inevitable. There may be things she wishes she had done.  There may also be things she wishes she hadn’t done.  She may have made serious mistakes that carried grave consequences.  She likely feels guilty.  If you feel guilt, too, you know what I mean. In […]

  • The Child-Loss Club

    May 8, 2018

    I am pretty sure that each and every one of you reading this article has heard the saying, “We have all joined a club, and this is a club that no one ever wanted to belong to.” I beg to differ. I just wish I could have joined this club without having lost my beautiful 12-year-old […]

  • I Care and Wish You Comfort and Hope: A Mass Shooting Triggers Mother’s Response

    May 7, 2018

    Valentine’s Day has forever been changed in my mind. No longer will I think of flowers, chocolates and the little hearts that say “I love you.” This year, a 19-year-old boy opened fire at a High school in Florida on Valentine’s Day, killing 17 teenagers. These recent shootings are unfortunately nothing new; in 1999, in Columbine, Colorado, two […]

  • A Book From an Old Soul Who Died Too Young

    March 15, 2018

    Our beautiful 12-year-old daughter Billie was involved in a freak horse accident and died on May 29, 2016. I was just about to turn 50 and up until losing Billie, I would have to have been the happiest person I’ve ever met. I never took my life for granted and can honestly say that I […]

  • How Hope Changes for a Mother of Many Losses

    March 13, 2018

    There was a time, in the early hours and months following my son’s death, where hope was nothing but a desperate desire to wake up from a bad dream. A hope that bordered on denial fed my wildest imagination, where I would wake up to find myself still pregnant or even better yet, to find […]

  • The Fear of Forgetting

    March 11, 2018

    This is the 11th year without my daughter Helen. I still miss her, still love her, and still remember her. But I’m worried. When I try to imagine Helen’s face in my mind, the image isn’t as clear as it used to be, and I don’t think of her as often. I have a fear […]

Open to Hope Radio

Open to Hope TV

  • Episode 146: Expressing Your Healing Power!

    October 6, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria and Dr. Heidi Horsley explore with Patti DiMiceli artist, inspirational speaker and author of Embrace the Angel and singer, songwriter Denise Ganulin how sharing their talents with others has helped them to find hope after the deaths of loved ones. The show closes with Denise performing What A Party.

  • Episode 144: Dads and Sons Get Real With Their Grief

    September 26, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria and Dr. Heidi Horsley explore the unique aspects of men and grief with bereaved fathers Babe Muro and Arnie Wendroff along with their bereaved sons Keith Singer and Jason Wendroff-Rawnicki. The show closes with bereaved parent and singer, songwriter Denise Ganulin performing.

  • Episode 143: Life Without My Daughter

    September 26, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria and Dr. Heidi Horsley explore with Michelle Muro, Varda Wendroff and Denise Ganulin how they found hope after the deaths of daughters. Grief expert Heather Stang shares tips on dealing with grief and loss. Denise, a singer songwriter, closes the show.

  • Episode 142: Sibling Death: Will I Ever Be Enough?

    September 25, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria and Dr. Heidi Horsley interview bereaved siblings Jason Wendroff-Rawnicki, Keith Singer and Fred Donegan. Jason and Keith lost sister’s Lauren and Lori in separate automobile accidents and Fred lost a twin prior to birth. As adults they explore issues of they have coped and found hope. An Open to Hope […]

  • Episode 141: Grief Shock; Your Body Is Your Buddy

    September 24, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria and Dr. Heidi Horsley interview Jason Wendroff-Rawnicki, co-founder of Shine Yoga Center and Heather Stang podcast host and author of Mindfulness & Grief on the importance of paying attention to the physical as well as the mental aspects of Grief. A video is shown of Dr. Bessel van der Kolk […]

  • Episode 138: How to Build Awareness After Loss

    July 30, 2018

    On this show Dr. Heidi Horsley explores with two bereaved mothers, Carol Henderson and Jamie Bright, how they have build awareness though writing and speaking. Carol is the author of Losing Malcolm:A Mother’s Journey Through Grief and Farther Along:The Writing Journey of Thirteen Bereaved Mothers. Jamie speaks out against domestic violence sharing the story of […]

  • Episode 135: Child Loss: Why and How Did They Die?

    June 27, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria Horsley and Heidi Horsley interview Theresa Lervolino whose daughter, Jessica age 27 was killed in 2010 in an automobile crash.  Theresa will discuss how serving as a chapter leader of The Compassionate Friends has again helped her to find hope. Annah Elizabeth is the author Digging For The Light, and […]

  • Episode 132: Resilience After Loss

    April 12, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria Horsley and Dr. Heidi Horsley, interview bereaved parents, Glen Lord and Lynda Cheldelin Fell, founders of the International Grief Institute. Glen is past president of the national board of directors of The Compassionate Friends, co-founder of The Grief Toolbox, and executive producer of the Walking Through Grief® series. Lynda Cheldelin […]

  • Episode 131: Redefining Ourselves After Loss

    April 11, 2018

    On this show, Dr. Gloria Horsley and Dr. Heidi Horsley interview Christine Duminiak and Dr. Tanya Lord about redefining ourselves after multiple losses.  Christine is an internationally recognized expert on afterlife contacts and signs, and a Certified Grief Recovery Specialist.  She has authored 5 books and co-hosts, Ask the Angels radio show. Tanya lost her […]

  • Episode 129: The Children’s Brain Tumor Foundation: Supporting Research and Hope

    April 10, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria Horsley and Dr. Heidi Horsley talk with Dr. Gary Jaworski, President of Children’s Brain Tumor Foundation and social worker, Jessica Elder, Bereavement Program Manager, about support, research and the needs of families who have lost a child to a brain tumor. Joining the group is bereaved parent, Sandy Perkins, who […]

  • Episode 128: Coping with the High Profile Death of a Child

    April 10, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria Horsley and Dr. Heidi Horsley will interview Jamie Bright and Delain Johnson, about coping with the high profile death of a child, and how they coped. Danielle was murdered by her boyfriend.  Delain is Vice President of Bereaved Parents USA, and a licensed counselor, specializing in grief and loss. Her […]

  • Episode 127: Regaining Your Health After Loss

    April 10, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria Horsley and Dr. Heidi Horsley explore with Basia Mosinski and Glenda Powell how to regain your health after loss. Glenda is Co-Chapter Leader of the Newport Beach Compassionate Friends chapter, and serves in memory of her son Garrison.  Basia is a health and wellness coach. She is Founder and Chapter […]

  • Episode 126: The Healing Power of Peer to Peer Support

    February 26, 2018

    On this show Dr. Gloria Horsley and Dr. Heidi Horsley explore with Bob Burt and Debbie Rambis, both bereaved parents, the healing power of peer to peer support. Bob Burt has a Hall of Fame Football coaching career, has served on the Board of Directors for The Compassionate Friends, and speaks on Student Suicide Prevention. […]

  • Episode 125: Creating Healing Communities After Loss

    February 26, 2018

    Debbie Rambis joined The Compassionate Friends in 2011 after the drowning death of her 29 year old son Tony.  She has served in numerous capacities for The Compassionate Friends, and is currently their Executive Director.  Jeannette Maré founded the Ben’s Bells Project after the sudden death of her two-year-old son Ben. Ben’s Bells focuses on […]

  • Episode 124: Recovery and Rediscovery after Loss

    February 26, 2018

    On this show Dr. Heidi Horsley and Dr. Gloria Horsley talk with Pamela Hagens and Dr. Janis Johnston, about Recovery and Rediscovery after Loss.  Pamela Hagens lost her 19 year old son Samuel in 2013. She is a lifetime proponent of health through exercise.  Dr. Janis Johnston is a counseling psychologist, who lost her husband […]

  • Episode 123: On The Road Again-Angels Across The USA Tour

    February 26, 2018

    On this show Dr. Heidi Horsley talks with Alan Pedersen, singer, songwriter and bereaved parent. Alan is the past Executive Director of The Compassionate Friends and is currently on the road with The Angels Across the USA Tour where he will speak and perform in over 100 U.S. cities in 2018. Joining them on the […]