Even though the calendar reads mid-January the days are getting longer. Someone said that at this time of year the daylight increases by 3 minutes each twenty-four hours; that comforts me, even though it was 10 degrees this morning.
That soft evening light that stretches over the river and trees by my house gives me a quiet settling as if I was taking that first deep breath of a meditation.
Grief is strange, as you know. One minute you want to hold on to the past dwelling on every little minutia of your lost loved one, and then as the different seasons approach you wish they would speed up so that the time would pass and some of the acute pain would vanish.
But just like the tulips that need the cold of winter, we need hibernation to work everything out. You can’t jump ahead into the future putting distance between you and your loss.
When the winter passes we need to be somewhat ready to start anew with a lighter, wiser, well-traveled heart.
The Buddhist nun, Pema Chodron talks about not having hope. At first I was taken aback, until I listened further. She wants us to live in the now.
Hope is the future, but with loss on any level hope becomes our oasis. We know what the past held for us, and our now isn’t looking so hot either so why not hope?
But this is the thing, we have to put hope in it’s proper place, we can’t drift away from the “now”, because we are well aware of our continual flashbacks and the past is what brought the pain to us, so where does one go?
Do not get trapped in the mourning, of what it was like before, and what it will be like in the future.
Now is the time to say, “This is what happened to me. It was a tragedy. It wasn’t fair. We had a good life, a planned life. But death is an equal opportunity tragedy that happens to many people everyday who experience (believe it or not) the same level of pain.”
Rest in the fact that spring is slowly on its way, the silence of winter and your hurt will see a crack of light emerge with the first note of the song bird, stick your foot in there and wedge it a little more open each day.

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