Im mad, Im sad, Im numb, I want my dad to call me and tell me everything is going to be ok. I never thought Id have to let go, I never understood how tired he really was, I hate myself for asking him to fight the cancer. I was so selfish and Im still being selfish, I want him back, I need my dad back. I feel like im going in circles, I want to tell him how much I love and miss him. Im drowing and I dont know how to let go.