Why Does it Hurt So Much?

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Grieving people usually don’t ask directly: Why does it hurt so much? But I see that it hurts; I hurt like that.

It hurts because you loved. You were connected to another human being heart to heart. It hurts. Death hurts a lot when we love like this. This hurt causes an incredible amount of suffering that hopefully this article may help you with.

Recently, watching the suffering of a mother losing her child, a sister losing her brother, and a father losing his son, I was moved to think deeply about human suffering. I prayed about it; in my prayer, I said to God, Please show me what you need me to understand about suffering. Then I waited, and paid attention.

Over the course of the next week, beauty began to show itself to me in different ways. I thought of that family, keeping them in the forefront of what I was trying to understand. I started to become acutely aware of beauty showing itself to me; my senses seemed heightened to the beauty in everyday life, I saw beauty deeper, I was feeling it, beauty became more vivid, colors richer, warmth enveloping my body, wind wrapping itself around me.  I appreciated beauty more it seemed after that prayer.

Then I received the word “Grace”.

You can look at this in a biblical sense if you like, but this article is for all, whatever you believe in. The way I felt this grace is explained in the dictionary as “favor shown in granting a delay or temporary immunity,” or think of it as a “grace  period.”  A period of Grace.

What I felt I was being shown were moments of Grace, glimpses of peace and beauty. Suffering in our grief is inevitable and it hurts; you feel like your heart may stop beating or that you could actually die from the sadness. You know that you won’t but in your heart and mind it feels like it. I know, I have experienced it too. But, we receive grace periods and temporary immunity from the suffering through our openness into grace.

Wherever you’re at in your grief today, go outside, because even though you don’t think so, your senses are heightened when you are grieving. Yes, you are VERY sad but there is Grace, if you can open to that Grace. BECAUSE of your suffering, you will start to see, hear and feel things like never before. You’re different, and Grace did that. I wish you peace.

 

Nina Impala

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NINA IMPALA is a highly intuitive multifaceted individual. This she combines with professional education in the End-of-Life Field. Certified by The American Academy of Bereavement for Spiritual Facilitation for the Terminally Ill, Nina also holds a BA in Human Services, is a graduate of Mueller College of Holistic Studies, Author of Dearly Departed What I Learned About Living From the Dying, and a Reiki Master Teacher. Currently she is the Bereavement Coordinator and Counselor for Gentiva Hospice in San Diego, California. For well over 19 years Nina has worked passionately in the hospice field using her gifts visiting the dying and educating families. In addition to working with hospice patients and their families Nina has also assisted families through tragic deaths. Nina works passionately helping them to understand that as much as we would like to have all the answer to the big questions accepting that we don't can be a big hurdle. Nina feels,finding peace in these situations is the greatest gift you can give to another human being. Nina lives in the San Diego area and can be reached at tutoringforthespirit@gmail.com

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  • ajay kumar says:

    Hello. We both loved each other so much. Last month she died in an accident and I was driving. I survived but i missing her and I am In extreme suffering. It seems she is nearby me still. Talking to me. Songs she used to listen keep coming in my dreams or ears every now and then. She loved me so much. I want to talk to her feel her I know she is with me

    • Nina says:

      I know she is there with you, keep remembering that, and because your heart, though broken is open to feeling her the signs will keep coming. She wants you to know she is right there. She’s knows how sad you are and how much your hurting.

      Being loved so much is such a gift, I m so sorry, she died. I m so glad you reached out, I hope you see this, if you want to write to me and it helps continue too… That’s why I am here.

      Tutoringforthespirit@gmail.com

      Nina

      Wishing peace to your heart, she sees you she’s there.

  • Humphrey Pisanis says:

    Thank-you Nina,
    Thank-you so much for writing this.
    I’m going to share it with my family and friends

    Sincerely,
    Humphrey Pisanis