Shock

Denial

Sadness

Numbness

Disbelief

Sick

Longing

Guilt

Anger

Exhaustion

A piece of your heart forever missing. Grief and mourning have many different dimensions and emotions.

And when your life collides with grief, and you’re knocked down by the sudden death of a loved one, the degree and power of grief is vast and all consuming.

Grief seeps into every pore. Like a giant, it overshadows everything you do, everything you say, everything you feel.

And, for a time, the ‘stop’ button gets pushed on your life and there’s no way to hit rewind….erase….fast forward!

Yes, grief consumes your world after a shock death. However, over time, and with support and through educating yourself and a lot of soul searching…you ‘can’ become like David and beat the Giant.

Over time, the numbness subsides and turns into awareness…of every little thing you are blessed with.

Your denial turns into learning to live with your loss….even if it is with baby steps.

Your sadness turns into joy…you start to see the gift of being alive!

 

Your anger turns into peacefulness in appreciating every little thing like sunsets and stars and a cleansing shower of rain.

 

Your exhaustion turns into vitality…and you want to experience everything life has to offer….you see the endless possibilities …and you get brave again.

But the longing, oh the longing, it never disappears….

A byproduct of grief, an ingredient in mourning, that lies in wait…always, simmering just below the surface.

Diana Doyle

savvydoyle@hotmail.com

 

Diana Doyle

Diana Doyle

Diana Doyle lives in Los Angeles with her husband, Peter, and her six-year-old daughter Dempsey. Their daughter Savannah was born in 1999. She was diagnosed with Metachromatic Leukodystrophy, which is similar to Lou Gehrig’s disease at the age of two-and-a-half. She died at age four. Since then, Diana has been speaking and writing in hopes of helping others who are dealing with losses of all kinds.

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