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Diary of a Bereaved Mother, Part 2

Posted on January 20, 2022 - by Terri Leidich

The following is an excerpt from From a Grieving Mother’s Heart. An excerpt from earlier in this book containing the diary of a bereaved mother is available here.   Diary of a Bereaved Mother January 13th (Day 221) Now that the young man who caused your death has been meted his punishment and the courts have done their job . . . or did they . . . I should be able to “turn the page” and move forward, but it’s not easy. Grieving is full of many sharp turns and curves, and they often catch me off-balance like they […]

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Diary of a Bereaved Mother, Part 1

Posted on January 20, 2022 - by Terri Leidich

The following diary entries are excerpted from From a Grieving Mother’s Heart. Read part 2 of the diary at https://www.opentohope.com/diary-of-a-bereaved-mother-part-2/   Diary of a Bereaved Mother June 11th (Day 5) We laid your body to rest today, son. Were you there? I think so. Did you see the mass of flowers flanking your coffin in the church? Did you hear the music and see your friends all somber as they ushered your casket in and out? Did you hear the beautiful sermon that Holly gave; the words to the song that I had written a month ago; the special poem […]

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Mourn Like a Dog: Mark the Absence, Maintain Connections

Posted on January 20, 2022 - by Joni Sensel

Mourn Like a Dog After my beloved partner, Tony, died without warning early one morning in 2017, I lived for the occasional sense that his spirit was near. Our dogs never reacted to the unseen energy I felt, but they did express loss. The black lab mix, Bape, drooped immediately. His master’s long absence on a trip the previous fall hadn’t fazed this boisterous dog, but after Tony’s death, Bape moped on the dog bed for about ten days before starting to act like himself. Our other dog, Jazz, didn’t seem to react at all for a week. No surprise […]

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I’m Joining the Circus: Movement is Healing

Posted on January 20, 2022 - by Sherry Walling

Movement is Healing Four months after brother died, I had a six-pack. Not the beverage kind, the abdominal kind. My dad and my brother both had died that year I turned 40. It was a year of heavy things. In addition to the crash course in death, I was running my own business and caring for three intense children. I was trying to show up for my husband, to be a friend to my friends, and also grapple with my own mortality. I did what every reasonable, middle-aged, working professional and mother of three would do in this situation: joined […]

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Dreaming About My Daughter

Posted on January 2, 2022 - by Patsy Freeman

It was an extraordinary night dreaming about my daughter. In the dream, my throat was covered with layers of stuff that prevented me from speaking out. I began coughing and coughing and could hardly stop. With each cough, some of the layers dropped away. My family in spirit, including my deceased daughter Jasmine, were around me, cheering me on to write. WRITE. WRITE. COME ON, WRITE! Okay. I am. I will. Yes! Then I saw in my mind those football rattles that go round and round making celebratory noises, and there were whoops of laughter all around me. Jasmine stays […]

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Mom’s First Birthday Without Daughter

Posted on January 2, 2022 - by Patsy Freeman

I was dreading my first birthday without my daughter, and I knew that if I didn’t mark it differently it would be unbearable. The days leading up to it are grim. My body begins aching all over, so much so that I worry I am going back to how I was at the start. Then I remember that the body has its own cellular memory. It forgets nothing. My body knows full well that my birthday is approaching. On the day itself, I am relieved to wake up feeling better. I leave the house before the postman comes, knowing there […]

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First Days After My Child’s Death

Posted on January 2, 2022 - by Patsy Freeman

It’s the first days after my child’s death. I write her a letter. Dear Jasmine, I’m in agony and spend ages just sitting on the sofa. It’s hard to describe how I feel. I’ve not energy for anything. Muppet needs a walk each day but that’s about it. I can’t get warm, even with a hot water bottle on my back. Anna has been over. You met her on a few occasions. She hands me a card and a small gift. I make tea for us. I want to talk about you, so tell her a little about your funeral. […]

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Forever Loved: Parents Love Their Deceased Children

Posted on December 18, 2021 - by Lydia Hill

Tim and Donna Culliver had nothing to worry about. That’s what the doctor told the Brenham, Texas, couple when Donna brought in their 4-year-old son, Adam, after he developed a fever and began complaining of nausea. Reassured that he had just caught a typical stomach bug, they returned home, where Adam continued running around with his usual infectious, energetic smile on his face. Two days later, Adam woke up from an afternoon nap screaming that his eyes hurt. “It was a different cry,” Donna recalled in a recent phone interview. “Like an excruciating cry, like, ‘Help me.’” She noticed his […]

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Through the Holidays, Grief Just Is

Posted on December 12, 2021 - by Sara Striefel

I sat down today to write about grief during the holidays. I started and stopped. Wrote a paragraph and then deleted it. I left the page to read someone else’s wise words, picking through the web of loss that spans the globe, searching for insight from others that have traveled this path before me and found grace in the process. I took a long walk. I asked my mother (gone from this earthy plane for over two years now) for guidance. Grief Is After some time, I came back to the page and saw that two words remained at the top […]

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Grief Tools to Support You

Posted on December 12, 2021 - by Catherine McNulty

Grief Tools for Support As I walked down the concrete path away from the hospital that had become my reality, grief came over me like a tidal wave. I wasn’t sure I’d survive. I walked across the street to where I had stayed for 42 days and 42 nights, as tears began streaming down my face. There was no longer a reason to be in the neonatal intensive care unit (NICU), and I was devastated. I needed some grief tools to make it through. That morning, as I left the hospital without my six-week-old son, my whole world came crashing […]

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