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Hope
After Loss of a spouse
After Loss of a spouse
Find hope and support by reading, listening and watching stories of spouse loss and recovery.
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Life After Loss the Afterwards
April 23, 2018
On February 11th, 2018 it was nine years since my husband, Marty, passed away. I saw a post on Instagram the other day which took my breath away because the words define “the afterwards” of life after loss. Ode to The Afterwards “Grief is not a task to finish and move on, but an element […]
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There Was a Door…
March 29, 2018
I was on the inside perched on the comfy green recliner staring at our newly painted front door. I used to listen to music or the television while I played Word Chums on my iPad but now I sat quietly waiting for you to come home. We had the downstairs painted while we were on […]
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Love and Grief: When Loss Enters Marriage
March 3, 2018
Like most family-oriented guys, my friend Chris searched and searched for his true partner and soul mate. I watched on the sideline as he spent months, lamenting on how he wanted to find a special woman to love, especially after two previously failed marriages. He still believed in love, and despite all the pain it […]
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The Stuff of Death
January 18, 2018
When my grandmother died, no one had touched the belongings in her attic or most of her house in at least 11 years. Her attic was the kind you access from a set of pull down rungs at the top of steep stairs surrounded by creepy ancient wallpaper that looked indicative of Versailles. The pull […]
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When the Final Words Were Angry
December 26, 2017
I’m sure you have heard the marriage advice “Don’t go to bed angry.” Resolving spats before bedtime is the advice offered by almost any long-married couple. What happens when differences can’t be resolved? When the night comes when, through fluke or chance, the marriage ends through a sudden death and there are no more bedtimes […]
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7 Survival Strategies for the Newly Bereaved
December 17, 2017
As a grief recovery coach, I often get emails from people who have just recently suffered a loss. They all want to know the same thing. What can they do to get through the pain, sadness, and grief? Here are some strategies my clients have found to be helpful. 7 Strategies for Navigating Loss: Practice […]
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Stories I Do Not Tell: Grief & Spirituality
November 16, 2017
Einstein said, “Energy cannot be created or destroyed. It can only be changed from one form into another.” Strange that a scientist’s quote brought me comfort in dealing with the death of my husband, Gary. It also became the means by which I convinced myself I wasn’t crazy when seemingly inexplicable, spiritual experiences happened. These are […]
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The Alzheimer’s Experience, Part I: ‘Which Island is This?’
September 5, 2017
Henry Van Winkle came out of the men’s room and sat down in front of his-half empty glass of beer at the small table nearest the promenade. The distinguished look of his full head of gray hair and neatly trimmed gray beard was not diminished by his wildly-colored floral shirt. “Boy, that was a […]
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The Alzheimer’s Experience, Part II: ‘He Was Such a Strong, Proud Man’
September 5, 2017
“Henry hasn’t been that bad,” Mrs Van Winkle reported to Dr Miller. “The only big problem is he wakes up at night and thinks it’s morning. Then he wakes me up to fix breakfast, and I can’t get back to sleep. I can’t understand why he thinks it’s morning when it’s still dark.” “I’ll prescribe […]
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Fingerprints: Losing a Husband, Living with Grief
June 15, 2017
When he used to take off his socks next to our bed and throw them ceremoniously to the cork floor, he would spread the fingers of his chubby peasant hands on the wall of our bedroom to keep his balance before rocketing into bed beside me. It took at least three years to have a finished […]
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Spring: Memories of Love, a Chance for New Growth
June 5, 2017
“You can cut all the flowers but you cannot keep Spring from coming.” ― Pablo Neruda Spring rain brings May flowers This was my partner Kim’s favorite time of year. I watch her child-like actions as the flowers bloom and the trees bud. She knew the names of them all, closing her eyes while […]
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The Blessing
February 14, 2017
Not long before Joanne, my wife, died, she told me she expected me to love again. She said it would “not be right to waste all the lessons we’d learned,” and I was “too young” never to love again. When I replied that I couldn’t imagine any love ever being as good as ours, she […]
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‘Do You Cook for Yourself?’: How to Remember a Loving Husband
January 7, 2017
“Do you cook for yourself?” a new acquaintance asks me. I smile to myself. She has no idea. She has opened the door wide. I begin: “No, I do not cook. My husband did everything with joy and skill for the entire time of our marriage.” I have one subject that fills my soul: the […]
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My Second Chapter: Life, Marriage, Family
January 4, 2017
Many people ask me, What’s it really like being re-married? My widow(er) friends want to know if I’m as happy as I was in my first marriage, if I compare my two husbands, why I’d risk being a widow again, and most importantly, if my new husband is understanding. Can you talk about James with him? […]
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Thanksgiving Darkness
November 24, 2016
Coming home after work in late November, I hear the sounds of children laughing and look down from the BART station at the playground of St. Leander’s School. Children are running around, playing kickball, and delighting in life. My wife Evelyn tutored at the school after hours for several years as her health slowly improved […]
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Homesick This Summer: Widows Miss Their Men
July 17, 2016
A few days ago, I boarded a flight to St. Louis to visit my son who had recently moved there for his job. As I sat in my seat, a white-haired lady walked down the aisle of the plane, and she had a big smile on her face, like she was glad to see […]
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Hope After the Loss of a Spouse
May 27, 2016
Artist, poet, and writer Laurel Diane Rund talks about finding hope once again after losing a spouse. Losing her husband took her on a journey to sorrow and personal transformation. According to a Chinese proverb, birds sing because they have a song—not an answer. Rund didn’t have any answers or know how to grieve. However, […]
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Managing A Death Anniversary
May 19, 2016
After losing my husband to brain cancer last year, I was often warned about the one-year anniversary of losing a loved one. The Death Anniversary. I was no stranger to this feeling; I had lost my father when I was a kid and my mother passed away the year before last… except this time was […]
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When Lupines Bloom, I Think of Him
April 25, 2016
My husband Vic and I planted many pounds of wildflower seeds in our fields over the years. Wild grasses devoured some of them, but the lupines thrived and self-seeded on broad hillsides. On the day of Vic’s death in June 2008, lupines bloomed with wild abandon, erupting from the earth with thousands of tall purple […]
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Eight Years Later: My Five Stages Of Grief
April 15, 2016
The Swiss psychiatrist, Elizabeth Kübler-Ross, wrote in her 1969 book, On Death and Dying, about the various stages of grief that the bereaved know all too well. I’m sure many of us have heard this from our shrinks or bereavement groups. As I reflect back on the eight years since my 17-year-old daughter Casey’s suicide, […]
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Entering into a New Relationship after the Death of a Life Partner
April 2, 2016
How many photos are too many? One of the most charming questions I ever received in one of my second year spousal loss classes came from a middle-aged man named Sam. He said, “If I were to invite a woman over to dinner, how many framed pictures of my deceased wife would be too many?” […]
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Spousal Loss: What Legacy of Loss Are You Passing on to Others?
March 28, 2016
The loss of your life partner is especially complex to manage because the two of you functioned as a couple for so long. As a result, you are not only dealing with the loss of your partner, but also the loss of your sense of self that was constructed through your interactions. The question becomes: […]
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Amy Florian: Finding Hope After the Loss of a Spouse
March 23, 2016
The founder and CEO of Corgenius, Amy Florian, shares her thoughts on losing a spouse and finding hope in the aftermath. As a bereavement consultant, she pursued her career based on her own experience. Her husband, John, was killed in an accident when they were in their 20s. She was shocked that the world kept […]
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Stephanie Groepper: Spouse Loss
February 29, 2016
Losing a spouse is unexpected, since you see yourself growing old with this person. Dr. Heidi Horsley talks to Stephanie Groepper, a military widow. She’s a psychology student and the founder of Washington Warrior Widows, a non-profit for widows and widowers in Washington State. Groepper’s daughter is seven years old, and was only four months […]
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Twelve Years Later: Love Really Is Both Sides Now
February 20, 2016
February is anniversary month, when loss rises like nausea, climbing and swelling until the day itself, February 21. This is the day my first husband Brett died of a brain tumor, a medulloblastoma. He was witty, green-eyed, and just shy of his fortieth birthday. I was 37, and our twins, well, they were less […]
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A Letter to Myself (as a New Widow)
January 9, 2016
I’ve always been a planner. When I was 8, I had Christmas presents wrapped and cards made in July. When I was 14, I researched all of my college options. When I was 19 and graduated college, I knew that 26 was going to be the best year of my life. After all, at 26, […]
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Grief and Healing: Against the Odds
December 22, 2015
This is my story of being widowed at 25 and again at 55, and the deaths of my beloved wives—the first in November 1984 and the second in February 2014. It’s not only that I lost both of these women to an early death, but also that these relationships were once-in-a-lifetime love affairs. Becky and […]
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Then and Now: The Roller Coaster of Being ‘Thankful’
November 16, 2015
THEN (2008) “Michelle? Are you there?” It was a good question. As the basket passes with blank cards – a tradition in our family for Thanksgiving – my arm seizes, refusing to lift itself and accept the basket. I know what is coming, and so the logical and emotional sides of my brain slip on […]
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Letter to a Loved One, Twenty Years Later
November 1, 2015
Dear Joanne, Today marks twenty years since I walked you over the threshold and out of your life on this earth. It feels like yesterday. It feels like 100 years ago. I cried last night at the benefit for the Breast Cancer Fund. It’s complicated when I cry like that. I’m crying because you are […]
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Spousal Loss: Spiritual and Physical Aspects of Loss
September 25, 2015
Body work expert Dr. Lyn Prashant joins Drs. Gloria and Heidi Horsley on this special episode of The Grief Relief show. Prashant lost her husband at a young age—they were both in their mid-30s when he passed away. She had worked in the grief field for years, and says that “talk therapy” was the standard […]
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AmyJo Mattheis: Loss of Identity
September 25, 2015
Drs. Gloria and Heidi Horsley talked with AmyJo Mattheis about losing your identity in grief. When Mattheis’ father died, she kept getting the feeling that “he’ll come back.” A former pastor and teacher at Pacific University in California, Mattheis blends her theological background with her professorship. She’s the author of Religion Made Me Fat, and […]
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Diane Dettmann: Sudden Death of a Husband
September 24, 2015
Drs. Gloria and Heidi Horsley welcome Diane Dettmann to The Open to Hope show. Dettmann lost her husband and literally wrote the book on it. She’s the author of Twenty-Eight Snow Angels: A Widow’s Story of Love, Loss and Renewal. It’s a memoir about the unexpected death of her husband, who was 54 when he […]
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The Way Love Feels Now
September 18, 2015
Two years after my husband Vic’s death, I drive home to the Finger Lakes of New York after visiting my son in North Carolina. I’m on familiar roads, but get lost three times—once by turning too soon, twice by driving past my exit. Maybe I’m distracted by listening to a CD, but the real issue […]
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Episode 130: Active Grieving: Writing Through Grief
April 10, 2018
On this show Dr. Gloria Horsley and Dr. Heidi Horsley interview Herb Knoll and Annah Elizabeth about Active Grieving: Writing Through Grief. Herb Knoll author of The Widower’s Journey, lost his wife Michelle to cancer. He is the founder of the Widowers Support Network, an advocate, and speaker on spouse loss. Annah Elizabeth, lost her […]
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Episode 125: Creating Healing Communities After Loss
February 26, 2018
Debbie Rambis joined The Compassionate Friends in 2011 after the drowning death of her 29 year old son Tony. She has served in numerous capacities for The Compassionate Friends, and is currently their Executive Director. Jeannette Maré founded the Ben’s Bells Project after the sudden death of her two-year-old son Ben. Ben’s Bells focuses on […]
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Episode 111: Living Mindfully with Linda Della Donna, Victoria Grinman and Bar Scott
August 4, 2017
On This show Dr. Gloria and Dr. Heidi Horsley interview Linda Della Donna freelance writer, bereaved spouse of Ed and author of A Gift of Love: A Widow’s Journey. The Second guest Victoria Grinman LCSW, adjunct faculty member of Columbia University and the owner of Growing Kind Minds. She is an expert in healing trauma […]
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Episode 86: Spouse Loss with Dawn Jiosi, Sara and Caryl Fried Feldmann
October 9, 2016
On this show Dr. Gloria Horsley and Dr. Heidi Horsley interviewed Dawn Jiosi, creator of the New Dawn that was inspired by the shattering life events of her husband’s death eight years ago. Our second guests were Caryl Fried Feldmann and her daughter Sara Feldmann Sheehan, Executive Producer of Mortal, a film inspired by the […]
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Episode 83: Spouse Loss with Audrey Pellicano and Rabbi Jeffery Sirkman
August 21, 2016
On this show Dr’s Gloria and Heidi Horsley interview bereaved spouses Audrey Pellicano. RN MS Health Counselor and educator, and Rabbi Jeffery Sirkman, Senior Rabbi of Larchmont Temple, regarding the challenges of lousing a spouse and how they have again found hope. Joining in the discussion of finding hope after the loss of a partner […]
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Episode 79: Spouse Loss, What About Dating?
July 1, 2016
On this show Dr’s Gloria and Heidi Horsley interview three bereaved spouses; Dr. Joanne Moore, physical therapist and author of After the Loss of a Spouse: What’s Next?, comedian Carol Scibelli author of Poor Widow Me and her partner Mickey Bayard. They discuss among other issues coping with spouse loss and dating. The show will […]
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Episode 70: Tuesday’s Children
May 3, 2016
On this show Dr’s, Gloria and Heidi Horsley discuss with Eileen Lynch MSW the loss of both her husband and brother-in-law on September 11, 2001 in the Twin Towers. The second guest is Sallie Lynch Development Consultant for Tuesday’s Children, Sallie discusses the lessons learned regarding community healing and resilience. A Tuesday’s Children video clip […]
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Dr. Edward Shaw: Alzheimer’s: Keeping Love Alive
July 6, 2017
Edward Shaw, MD, is dually trained as a physician and a mental health counselor. He was the primary care partner for his wife, Rebecca, who was diagnosed with early-onset Alzheimer’s disease in 2007 and died after a nine-year battle. Dr. Shaw is the co-author of “Keeping Love Alive As Memories Fade: The Five Love Languages […]
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Cheryl Lankford: Empowering The Bereaved
April 6, 2017
Cheryl Lankford’s husband, Command Sgt. Major Jonathan Miles Lankford, served 23 years in the Army. At the time of his death, CSM Lankford was deployed to Baghdad, Iraq, with the Army’s Explosive Ordinance Disposal Unit. Cheryl is actively involved with TAPS (Tragedy Assistance Program for Survivors), helping other bereaved military families. http://opentohope.s3.amazonaws.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/04/04083937/Cheryl-Lankford.mp3Podcast: Play in new […]
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Joanne Moore: Spouse Loss, Living in a New Way
December 15, 2016
When Dr. Moore was widowed, she sought mentors for living in a new way. She was inspired by the stories of more experienced widows and widowers. This prompted her to found the magazine, Pathfinder: A Companion Guide for the Widow/er’s Journey, and Right After the Loss of a Spouse: What’s Next?
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Peter Lichtenberg: Spouse Loss
October 27, 2016
Dr. Peter Lichtenberg is a clinical psychologist and professor at Detroit’s Wayne State University. Peter specializes in patients with geriatric issues. When he was finishing his degree in clinical psychology at age 25 his wife Becky died while jogging. Thirty years later his wife Susan died of breast cancer. Grieving and healing from these two […]
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Charlene Cole: How Long will the Pain Last?
June 30, 2016
Charlene Cole is no stranger to loss. Her only child Joe was killed over thirty years ago and in 1998 her husband died by suicide. Charlene has a master’s degree in Counseling Psychology and is the author of How Long Will the Pain Last? Every Bereaved Parent Wants to Know. http://opentohope.s3.amazonaws.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/06/02090949/Charlene-Cole.mp3Podcast: Play in new window […]
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Getting Through the Grief of Widowhood: Carol Brody Fleet
January 14, 2016
In 2000, Carole Brody Fleet lost her beloved husband Mike after a two-year battle with ALS. At age 40 she was on her own raising an 11-year-old daughter. She realized that widows wear stilettos too, not just black, she thus set out to help others feeling the emotional shock and devastation of widowhood. She is […]
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Death of a Fiancé: Ann-Marie Attaie
December 31, 2015
Anne-Marie Attaie lost her fiancé Michael to a sudden and unexpected heart attack in the summer of 2000. With his death she came to understand the impact of loss and the need for compassionate care of those impacted by grief. She is the Administrator of Carelink Hospice Services in Hayward, California. https://audio.opentohope.com/OpenToHope_Ann-MarieAttaie.mp3Podcast: Play in new […]
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Grief to Grace : Mary Potter Kenyon
November 19, 2015
Mary Potter Kenyon is the author of three books. Her most recent is Refined by Fire: A Journey of Grief and Grace, which details her process of grief and healing after the loss of her mother, husband, and grandson in a three-year period. Refined by Fire recently received the 2014 USA Best Book award. She is […]
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Elaine Mansfield: Death of a Husband Guest
October 29, 2015
Elaine Mansfield leads workshops and bereavement support groups and writes for Hospice and Palliative Care of Tompkins County in Ithaca, NY. Her writing reflects her forty years as a student of Jungian psychology, mythology, meditation, and nature. Since her husband’s death in 2008, her work has focused on a search for love, meaning, and healing […]
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For the Ones Left Behind: A Guide for Helping Loved Ones After a Death
May 23, 2016
A death can shatter the lives of those left behind. Now, there are so many things to do. Who do you call? Where do you start? How can you help? Managing to survive in the aftermath of a loved one’s death is a daunting task. For the Ones Left Behind, A Guide for Helping Loved […]
